Today is a significant day is more than one way.  I'm not going to dwell on any one of them because doing so is just silly.  First and foremost, today is the birthday of an extremely dear friend that passed away three years ago.  A day doesn't go by where I don't think about her and her impact on my life.  I miss you, M.  The second significance is if I had stayed in my doctoral program I would have finished my second year comprehensive exams today.  This can be the point in one's academic career where one can make it or break it.  As much as I know leaving the program was the right thing for me to do, again, there is not a day that goes by that I don't think about where I would be had I not left it.  Part of me feels like a quitter (and kind of a failure) and another part of me feels courageous and that it truly was not the right time in my life to pursue it.  It's definitely a bipolar feeling.  These two significant factors in my life actually do overlap, as well.  M was a big part in me pursuing a doctorate.  Not only was she a great friend, but she was a mentor.  

So I took a drive around the Marin Headlands today and snapped a couple of pictures of the Bay.  Literally ten minutes later the sun came out.
7/20/2013 08:58:04 am

I liked this a lot. I didn't know about your anniversary... Try not to torture yourself with What if's. I am learning that one too.

I had a pensive day that day. I was of course mommying all day, but I was working some karma too.

Hope you have yourself a fun weekend.
xo m


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